| I'm so ready to be in love... I'm so ready to be sick to my stomach missing somebody... I'm so ready to say goodbye to my girlfriend when she comes to visit me for 2 days and choke on my tears in the back of the car silently for the first half hour of the ride. I want it... It's just not my time yet.
mm hmm... just felt like putting this up right about now.
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| yea... 4am chat with my libra neighbor... it sure helps me clear my mind 
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| fuck i keep waking up lately... just tryin to sleep early -_- but my body just cant stay asleep till fuckin 7:30am can it... fuck fuck fuck...
ugh... this week has been hell on myself...
well had the computer on and had music playing when i sleep, as usual... just layin there and nothing lasts forever came on by maroon 5... one of my favs i guess... and i got to thinking and just broke down the words a little and tried to see what they might've meant in the song, bleh boredom/cant fall back asleep does this to ya:
I think this song is about a guy who is with a girl who wants
to love him back but doesn’t know, so she says she doesn’t know, and
though he tried to wait for her, he’s losing it in his head (I tried and tried to
let you know, I love you but I'm letting go, It may not last but I
don't know, I Just don't know), and eventually he just can’t wait any
longer… which is why he is letting go. He thinks that if she doesn’t
know then she cant care as much as he does (“if you don’t know than you
cant care” ) and every time they try to talk about it they only end up frustrated, which is why he says “with every word whispered we get more
far away” & “The misbehaving only makes, The ditch between us so
damn deep”. I think she doesn’t feel for him because she’s been in
relationships where they told each other that they loved each other and
then they ended not to long after and that’s why he says “…you want to,
Still afraid that I will desert you”. I also think that she doesn’t
really trust him for the same reason and that’s why he says “But you're
still too reluctant to accept my help, What a shame I hope you find
somewhere to place the blame”.
hmm another song came up.... coldplay... help is just around the corner... haha i didnt remember this song until it just came up.. kinda good to describe how i feel this week...
Seems like it describes feeling totaly dejected and not being able to do anything but
sit there and think how badly its all gone wrong... even the thought of
help is not comforting, whatever that help may be... it's a guy at wit's end. He's burned out, strung out, and doesn't know
what to do. He's just clinging to the hope that, as the title says,
help is just around the corner.. you can just hear the singer in the song... the pleading for some relief, even if only for a short while....
yea i know, i think too much... time to try and sleep for 3.5 more hours...
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| 1. school
2. work
3. health
4. fun
5. get a license
6. family
7. matters of the heart
alright lets try it out boys and girls and lets see wut happens
sigh.....
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